With a heavy heartAnd tears carresing me as they slide down my face I find that I have been pulled into darkness once againBut I will survive this I will prove them wrong

There is one missing out of the six, but I hope these are pleasing enough.

iM A MARRIED WOMAN NOW!!!!!! cAN YOU BELIEVE IT? i CANT. iTS SO WEARED, BUT IM OK. iT TOOK ME ACOUPLE OF DAYS FOR IT TO SINK IN. i WAS LIKE...iM NOT MARRIED YOUR NOT MY HUSBAND WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE AT 2 IN THE MORNING AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! STOP THAT,NO SEX FOR YOU!!!!aND i WAS ON A CRUESE AT THAT POINT. bUT THEN WE TALKED AND GOT TO oCHO RIOS jAMAICA AND ALL WAS GOOD AGAIN. iVE BEEN REALLY HAPPY EVER SINCE. THE HUNYMOON WAS GREAT, WE HAD SO MUCH FUN IN AND OUT OF THE SHOWER AND OFCOURRCE OFF THE BOAT. nOW WERE BACK IN FLORIDA AND VISITING WITH BENS PARENTS. wICH IS REALLY COOL CAUSE WE GET TO SEE MY NEW NEPHEW CONNER AGAIN. THIS WEEKEND WERE GOING TO sT. AUGUSTINE FRI. SAT. fOR ME THATS REALLY MAKING A WRONG RIGHT SINCE THE FIRST AND ONLY TIME I WAS THERE IT DIDNT REALLY TURN OUT SO HOT. bUT WOW WHAT A RIDE. a NEW LIFE RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME. i LEAVE IT ALL TO GOD.

Well now im just tired and frustrated cause out of the tree really long recaps of how ive been for the last 3 months, this is the one that actually showed up, Sorry Im going to sleep.Damn computers@_@ ZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZz

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Keeping up this journal is terribly hard for me, not having much access to a computer and all. But... life is good here. However it’s not so good for some family and friends. Evelin called about 2 weeks ago at about 12 midnight to inform me of some bad news. As it turns out, my 15 year old sister got herself into a coma for a week from an overdose on either heroin or Cocaine mixed with speed. And she’s still seeing her shit-head boyfriend, who is screwing her to high heaven in more than one way. But not before first running away from the rehab center Evelin flew herself to California in the first place to put her in. But in all honesty I can do nothing to help her from here except pray to God that someone else can in my place. So now Evelin is taking it upon her self to be that person by moving to California till May. WELL SEE WHAT HAPPENS.This last week I also decided to sever all ties to my previously mentioned friend, Scot Morrison. In the end he wasn’t a good friend or good influence, or at all in tune with were I want my life to go in the future. So for the first time I was the one to leave, Standing up for myself as well as for those around me and my religion. In all, I never once spoke of my religion but he would always bring it up in an indirect manner. This last time we saw each other, Drunk as always he pointed and then held one of my many cross charms from my necklace almost threatening to rip it right of my neck. With utter anger in his eyes he said I new nothing of what God would have me do. Later he had the audacity to ask me If I liked him, as in do you have feelings for me... I said no sternly and he responded I think you’re lying to your self. I must admit when I first met Scot during my relationship with Rick I thought he had been cute, but knew nothing of him except that he worked at the WB Dalton at Point Orlando. But now Years later he threatens to bring me down, thus destroying the life I have worked so vigorously hard to build. I would have nothing of it. So I warned him a dozen times of my intentions to disappear from his life in the hopes he might be willing to improve himself as only he can do, and when he didn’t listen I was gone. Deeply wounded, but gone. As for Benjamin and I, he has been of great comfort to me with all of this, and recovery did not take long. Not to imply I have or will forget. They as everything remains a part of me, but I am relieved to say I have grown strong, and finally have the courage not to lose myself in others quite so easily. But I do miss many old friends and often wonder of their whereabouts and there well being. I don’t think I’ll ever stop caring about others, but will start caring for myself.